what's the story now

Button.

2009-08-07T06:43:00.000-07:00

We have a new addition to our family. Instant quick. We took her from KK yesterday, and boy, was i excited.

Thinking bout' the little button saddens the family, but she's our source of joy and happiness. Now i'll be stuck more at home. And Hazri will be ignored! hahaha.

Nur Railah, i will blog about you every now and then. You'll never be out from anybody's sight. Loves.

put aside.

2009-07-20T03:07:00.000-07:00

Hey.

Was busy, but not right now. Weekends was g-r-e-a-t. Ate at Popeye's with none other. Catch-ed HP at the Theaters with Karim and Naz. Finally watched Transformers with Luqman and Yana. It was better than Harry Potter i think. Went to Tapestry to watch Yana and the band doing their thang. lol. And that shows how "busy" i was?

I did some spring cleaning, and I bought a book (The reader). So i think I'll avoid hang-out sessions with the other Usuals. Not that I'm looking forward to meet some of them of cuz. I prefer the latter. I can withstand Irritants but I can't make do with allergies, if you know what i mean. I'm a person whom you can read very easily with my plastered expressions, but No sir, not my thoughts.

PB time.

Tics.

brighter than usual.

2009-07-14T19:15:00.000-07:00

I'm turning to be a regular blogger once again while the rest is just not updating? what happened?

Might be going out with Parker later for some bottom hunt and i might be buying a new shoe, when most of you all know that I'm an easy person. Flip flops is practical you know. But i can't put down temptations! My two Onit Tigers, Mr Crocs, Adi and Gallaz begs for my feet, haha!

Anw, usual chillout session with the usuals plus two, minus 1 multiply by 3. can't really sum them up as the usuals, but idk. I need to rant now, back to my PB.

tac toes.

flames to dust

2009-07-13T22:00:00.000-07:00

retdi
itrde
trdie
diert
dietr
ietrd
eitrd
rietd

ok, im tired actually. dead beat. doing nothing. :)

Thurs plan's is on. Invitation is out. To the rest with nil verbal invitation, mcm dunno only, just join. We're wall faces, sometimes.

infinite tic tacs.

far away,

2009-07-13T02:54:00.000-07:00

This is to prove how mad bored i am right now.

2nd post of the day with nothing to tell. Except on my other side of the world, which is my private blog. Will be inviting 2 of my trusted souls. >:(

And I have to learn how to manage my anger. Sorry to those whom I've vented on. No purpose, but you know me.

tic tac.

oblivious

2009-07-12T23:16:00.000-07:00

Was hoping to get out from my house, but sometimes unforeseen circumstances knock us down. So yeah, rot at this full week.

And for starters, hope you can "open your eyes big-big". Don't even know why I'm so angry with you sometimes. Please change, cuz i really care. I do. :( hahah. apa ni?

I'm having this weird mood seizure. bah.

do you hear me, i'm talking to you

2009-07-12T21:51:00.000-07:00

It feels .... great? to let out my emotions to someone who's observant afterall. haha. Although it's quite weird, but letting out something that u've been bottling feels fulfilled? haiyaa.

I'm not really sure whether quitting my job is the right decision but I'm pretty sure that it was my last resort. truth is, It's really hard to let it all go. Great friends, but the pay sucks, what's more is the fucking management. Not fair!

I've been hanging out like nobody's business. God, it's a waste of time. Repeating cycle. IT'S A WASTE OF TIME!! But it's better than staying at home. Lagi waste of time! WASTE OF TIME UNDERSTAND? apa ni?

I miss the good ol' times. When nothing seems to matter, only friends stays still. FRIENDS what FRIENDS?

And i'm ranting again.

p/s : you're so near but you're out of my reach.

gotta miss that sch

2009-07-09T20:35:00.000-07:00

Was in the bus with Amin when i saw this vandalized seat. God how i miss sch, thanks Vandal.

Wet Sunday

2009-07-05T04:24:00.000-07:00

As most of you all know, YES I've finally quitted my job. And I've got the whole year to rot, December come quick babe!

Oh boy, what cold weather we have today, eh?

life, the likes and dislikes.

2009-07-03T06:02:00.000-07:00

There are some accomplishments made in life which either makes you happy or the other way round. On my side of story, those little accomplishments made are out of rush. Never think through decisions. Sad.

And there are also some things or that specific someone in your past, where you can never or will not give up. Even though you know that, that person is now beyond your reach. Snap back to reality, I have to. That i know. Very well, very well.

And at some point of times, you wished with all your mighty might not to even meet any of your associates. Those turds who just can't keep things to their own fucking self. Just have to just share it with the whole world. Word vomit is not exactly the way i see it. I hated you.

And at this point of my "hoppipolla" time, I am glad I'll never have to see you again, though i know i will. :( Just keep things to yourself pretty please you ignorant bastard. And keep your mask on, then come out from your ugly shell, to show people how "beautiful" u are when we all know what kind of person you really are. A mirror image of someone.

We live our life with full of regrets. I lived my whole life filled with it. :(

Oh why do i bother.

2009-06-05T05:24:00.000-07:00

My nose pipe's failing me when I'm just a few hours shy to my birthday. Don't be like this lehhh.

2009-05-26T08:53:00.000-07:00

giggle like a silly girl!

22, wish u the best!
no comment! haha!
Did some quick shopping (quick as in, don't care how much mollah i have) before heading to Fish and Chicks (?) for Sissy's bdae dinner. Very yum and no holes in pocket indeed! Was very bummed after dinner since me and fie had some intense shopping. lol.

and then today, i saw you. was that good or bad? or mmmhhhh.....

off to bed now!

content

2009-05-25T04:24:00.000-07:00

here i am being fuss free when someone just have to gaciau me and say "faz can u help me ......''.wah piang eh.

other than that, my bdae will be coming up real soon. so screw your other plans, and come straight to my party. and as for my gift, just give me money can already! i have loads of things to buy and settle. 50dollars will be fine. I'm big already ahh,so don't be a bloody moron and give me $10 ah, mau mati eh??? hahahhaa. yes i am bad apa!

but,my party budget one.i wanted a chalet but aiyah, i hardly have the time to book kay.

and my life's been pretty fine. my bad past will be treated like i had a very BAD concussion. then ok liao. yang lain your pasha, not my pasha.

i've gotten my KATE SPADE FF. god, nothing can describe my feeling at that point of time. THANKS LOVE. eeee,i sound like *ttttoooootttt* and now i'm broke.but thanks eh you know who you are.

2009-05-13T19:39:00.000-07:00

MAJOR WTF???? apa nieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee????

putar belit putar belit, gasing pun pening, lalat sudah pening, semua pun peningg!

can you like seriously think before you key down your thoughts?

sudah lah, aku da malas nak fikir pasal this shits. If people were to be smart enough, how many people came in with good thoughts and left with nothing but hatred towards your actions? Neither do i have the intention to have my life back like the ol times. Simply said, my actions towards you was given directly back to you like how you treat me.

Mak aku ckp, "tak sangka eh dik....sudahlah" (with some laughters), apa hal yang aku nak buat story kat mak aku? Bapak aku kata ".................." cuz belum lagi ckp ah. And the rest was history.

Aku ni bukan nye SEJAHAT yang kau fikir. If i were to backstab you from a candle lit room with a knife in my back, CAN YOU PROVE IT? kalau aku not happy with your "happy" life, CAN YOU PROVE IT?

apa? aku ada ke cakap benda2 buruk pasal kau? ada ke aku nak jumpa kau terpekik terlolong. ada ke, lets say aku nak kawin, pass the invitation to someone else, when i can pass it to you personally when u did your rounds to pass em?

K suka hati kau k. If kau seriously tak kuasa, why snoop so low and ask people who's not involved in this shit about me? or whether dia pernah dengar the ongoing talks in the office. bullshit sak ni semua. Like i said , my hatred towards you is not baseless. Kalau betul you're not making a big fuss, you could have met me, like how you met the rest of your enemies. Aku tak cakap aku nangis, lol. cuma susah ah bebual kat net. Mcm seek attention, even if kau memang takde intention, tapi the rest of your lovelies boleh baca, betul tak?

I know this will happen.

In the end life goes on, me with my life, and you with your life.

from: tak senior, bukan assistant cuma ridiculously pathetic weird worker. XD

2009-05-13T03:16:00.000-07:00

based on my true judgements and others, i'm not afraid of anything. neither do i go around asking people whether they've heard anything. lol.

You should have asked me why. YES, i've bitched about those who're are close to you, but don't you? At least you're the one that i've bitched about that someone, but you've bitched about your own bestfriend to your own enemy? I mean wtf?

I don't know whether it's true or not, but the ongoings talks here and there might be true. And so what if i share my problems with my mom? Atleast i don't go around telling people.

Me not happy with your life? Backstabbing you?????????? are you fucking kidding me? What have i done? Snatch your boyfriend? ex-boyfriend? going around saying things about yourself,your family? saying to supervisor that i don't deserve a raise? LOL. BIG TIME JOKE! ring a bell?

Please lah eh, kalau org tak kacau aku,aku tak kacau org.And aku tak kacau hidup kau pun.Why should u even bother? Aku tak menyusahkan hidup kau dengan my what? weird attitude?

Do you know how much i suffer because of you? even before you realise that I've been neglecting going out with you,or having small talks with you? because i don't wanna lie to myself,and force myself to be happy aroud you.

Ye lah, mesti orang yang rapat ngan kau will agree with what you've gotta say, takkan they want to agree with me when they've not heard of my side of story?

Yes i've gotta agree that you used to be someone who'll i turn to everytime,and maybe others too,but you only realize the bad things when they cast you away,or when you cast them away? don't you realize?

Let's say,you used to be close with A,and when B came you cast A away.Happen more then twice eyy? But that's not the issue.

I seriously don't get what you're trying to say.If you can share with your whoever, why can't I sharewith my parents. -.-

Don't worry,I won't gang up and I'm not even bothered to ask people this and that.'

I think i need see the doctor too. My eyes pun swollen jugak. Baca sana baca sini, tapi tak nak tanya sendiri.Nak korek jugak.

Aku tak pernah hasut sapa2 to avoid kau. Aku tak pernah nak cakap pasal keburukan kau yang baseless, apa keburukan kau yang orang selama ni nampak,aku pun nampak. Even those who've befriended long way back.

Aku memang takde issue ngan kau.Seriously. Tapi what about kau?

If you seriously want to know, siapa yang depan baik,tapi kat belakang cuma Allah je yang tau?

U know how to get through me now don't you? Through someone else. hah~

Please lah eh, apa yang kau imply to semua baseless. suka hati kau lah.

2009-05-11T20:12:00.000-07:00

Pretending to be normal all this whole while infront of you is one thing, but pretending nothing ever happen is another. Taking in people's advice might be easy, but forgetting what you did.....

You're not the victim to your own doings. I know how you handle things. When this is not an age issue, you make things sounds so big. When i tried to swallow every hurtful thing you did, you make it sound so cheap by saying I'm pathetic?! major wtf!

Why don't you tell those who're with you (have fun while it last) what kind of a person you really are? If I'm really a backstabber, we would have confronted you isn't it? If i'm trying to destroy your happiness right now, I'd simply say the nastiest thing to all you friends now, don't you think? Please lah eh, memang senang for you to gain this publicity act, but whatever you did or say things behind my back, I'd never even consider to meet you, and then you'll leave after shouting and crying. Atleast I did not even make calls to someone else's mom or anybody for that matter when you can just solve the problem yourself.

That's it. I don't even wanna drag this shitty matter. You can say whatever you like when I don't think that neither of your "bestfriend" saw the cold shoulder i gave you. Suka hati kau lah, nak buat bodoh, buat bodoh je la. blogging is already a big hoo haa. tsk.

2009-05-11T03:51:00.000-07:00

If it weren't for you and your outright drama, I think I'll not be associated with all your bullshits either.

Ye lah, once you said the baddest thing about your close friend and when u decided that you've found someone new, you cast her away. The irony!

I'm not good, i admit that to all humas whom i've met. But i've got my own reasons why you deserve the cold shoulder. You don't want me to embarass you don't you? then i advice you better stay out form my own judgements.

If i had known what kind of person you are to all you "enemies" i swear to god I have left when i wanted to. Guess my mom and dad and all the rest of once-you're-in-good-terms-with was right! Have fun.

off to a new city

2009-05-01T20:04:00.000-07:00

laaalaaaaaaalaaaaaaaaaaa.

It's like birds chirping, winds gusting, buzzling busy city..... Yep, couldn't care less. Since I've got my trusted source, tell me why should i care? Oh yes because you're not to be blamed, others will.

Take care and stop hurting others.

xoxo,
i've got your dirty little secret. ;)

Trust me, it's like I'm never ever there.

tiitterr

2009-04-29T19:16:00.000-07:00

I'll let you in, for some playground affair. Just to hold your face, be in your embrace.

post

2009-04-22T04:58:00.000-07:00

I'm currently anticipating for my birthday to come!

And i'm pretty sure I'm getting those fondues just cuz! and what kinda gift should i get to cause holes in my parents pockets eh? i'm thinking of some gadgets, but i'm not really sure which one. Since i'm not born in a filthy rich family, maybe a decent phone should just be fine eh. xperia maybe?

thing is, I'm not really sure which chalet i should book. Sis said i should try The Chevrons but what will happen to my fantasies? ahhh, that you should not ask loh. hahah.

To those invited since this slip tongue of mine is just slipppppperryy(can't hold the excitement,grr), please come eh!

bummmmm

2009-04-12T06:07:00.000-07:00

aiyah. though of blogging but i've got 15 more minutes loh. wtf?

anyways one quick one.

fuck you and your mother fucking mama.

LOL. told ya it was quick.

hababaloo.

2009-04-10T01:35:00.000-07:00

EEEEE! makin meyampah please dgn kau! action baik je, tapi tak! Thank god lah for everything. Proves that you can't always get everything in your way. Now tell me who's your true friend? One by one is flying off! That means something ain't it? Yes, all the problem lies with you, goody-two-shoes!

How can anyone possibly trust you? Cuz you're so promising in the beginning BUT you SUCK in the ending. Sorry to say this but you make such a good actress. Don't try singing, try your fantabulous acting skill instead, as a backstabber. PROMISING I TELL YOU!!!! wtf.

I'm so rotting alone. Mom's forever going elsewhere. She's in KL again. I need a puff. And yah, I'm finally satisfied with being me. I've enlarged my holes, gotten a smiley and the tongue one as well. But if only my mom is not so kuno, I'd probably gone crazy with holes here and there. BUMMER! and she even said that I can party off with 300dollars, or get what i wanted if I'm going to take off all these metals in my mouth. C'mon mom, love me pleaseeee. 300dollars? what can i possibly get with that amount of money for my 21st?????

So should it all off, or not? this fucking holes in my mouth cost me 140++. alah.....

can't hold on to this.

2009-03-24T04:29:00.000-07:00

cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
tell me that it's over
And I'll be the first to go
Don't wanna be the last to know

Crash and burn. I'm not in the mood for anything. Cept for the moolah i'm getting tonight. Screw all of you assholes. That includes you too who's been sneaking up on my blog, and snapping when you don't even know what I'm blogging about. I don't even give two hoots when you fuck with someone's dad, so i guess when you don't even know me, stop judging me from the way i fucking blog. you made me do this.

Urgh. why do i even fucking care about you? Cause you just can't keep your mouth shut, and keep asking Rad to read my fucking blog. Yes, she knows this existence of my fucking blog. SO? And all of your 'EX' colleagues knows the existence of my blog too, so why bother. ao my blog is made for you to ask around whether they know I'm bitching about them? NICE! -.-

Can't believe you're making a hoo haa out of my posts.

S.N?

2009-03-18T06:32:00.000-07:00

Today was tough and absolutely rough. I hardly have the time for some breather. *gasp

(drama mama mode ahead!)
firstly was the fucking fucked up bus service at my estate. Took small fucking fish nibbles to reach. patience was on it's toll loh. saddened cuz ak ny boy t da na tra! nearly brought tears to my eyes loh! But nay, I had some visuals to keep me back on my happy track :) 4 days baby.....

secondly was the problem i had at work. Thankfully the bosses help me through. Thank god for that. I was spared! L was being lovely (hahah),and that does not happen on a regular basis k. J was good too. So yeah, alhamdullilah.

Hopefully my short escapade will heal my broken heart (hahahahah!). My body begs for the mercy of good old rolling, pinning and kneading though. And maybe just maybe I'll get a wee bit of tan. JUST CUZ! (NINA and DIAN, you know i know kan)! heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

See you on monday my eye candy. me wants you! i'll apply some aloe vera all over your badly burnt charred body, maybe we'll have good ol' rolling fun, don't you reckon? lol! Pardon me for the interrupted self talking habit. hah! can't help it gitu loh!

Note to self:Don't be deceived by small drumsticks, could be rats(from a trusted source)Heng that i don't really favour drums. Packed and ready to jet! Though the heart wants to stay badly with you. (hahahahhahahhahahhaha) have to stop or else this snizzy snazzy won't stop!

DAAAAAAAAAA~~

stay, last.

2009-03-17T05:02:00.000-07:00

This two days has been extremely good. Lasted a while je, buttt, was fun while it lasted :)

See you tomorrow my yummy morny baby bunny. HAHAH! (yes, i'm talking to myself, hee.) I sense a stinking skunk, cibby in denial.

Well anyways, It's going to be torturous for the upcoming days ahead since I'm going away for a short break. 4 days seems so long! I've gotta get used to this living lifestyle since my weeks are marked by morns and noons. bah! my life is a little bit dramatic lah.

meanwhile, tomorrow will be a very loooooonnng mooooooody day.

bad!

2009-03-15T00:02:00.000-07:00

Hey, I'm at work right now. On a gleeful Sunday. Sigh...Alone. Going to punch out right after i finish this entry.

Bad cruel people - They're very good at denying,almost clueless at their wrong doings.
- Good at almost everything, BONUS:DECIVING.

Why am i such a fool all the time.

I really hope you appear suddenly. gotta run, it's going to raaaaain.

happy!

2009-03-13T05:25:00.000-07:00

Heaven on earth, the exact feeling for Friday the 13th. My most anticipated question has been answered on today itself (which took forever lah). phew. Gave one quick call to my train buddy just now. Juicy details! haha. better be early tomorrow.

God please. God please. Please God.

Bunny's sunburn is really bad. You should have brought me along you know. ;) And nearly two weeks of your absence is not funny. I so miss you like hell. ....... (sorry was talking to self, haha)

Bulls Ching Chong!!!! are you sneaking on my blog?!

Oh dear, flu's bugging me.

whaaa?

2009-03-10T07:49:00.000-07:00

Didn't know you'll take all the hassle to go sms somebody at 12++am just to ask that person whether she knows this shithole of mine. HAHAHAI!!!! err, i think it was no hassle at all. but wtev.

I guess people do jump to conclusions. for beginners, knowing me isn't that easy. Kan Anj Sur (u-know-who-u-are)?

Read in between the lines please. Because for one, you don't even know the story behind every post that u've read. I don't know you, and ak don't even have any issues with you, even with all the stories i heard because why, I just can't be bothered. It's your pasal anyways.

Sad nya that I'm so merepek. So merepek that you have to bother someone's sleep in the middle of the night! -.-

tired.

2009-03-06T05:02:00.000-08:00

I've been updating regularly eh. That's weird.

Well anyway, things some of you have yet to know about .... me.

Firstly, I don't care if i ever lose any one of you as a friend. Be it, if you've been with me for more than a few years now. and i have a serious case of slip-tongue.

Secondly, what makes you think that I care if I lose someone who's only close to me when we're only colleagues.

Thirdly, when i set my thoughts straight, I'll never choose any left turns. The right turn will be another story lah. If u get what i mean.

I had tonnes of friends whom I love to be with. But some choose to depart. And i'm not least affected by it because I've had my fair deal, and they had theirs too. but I'm always the bad guy. so whatever.

Lastly, I hate having friends. I've never taken anyone for granted. I don't trust all this best friend, trusted friend thing when it's clear to you that you've bitched about them or the other way. Don't have to pretend lah, the looks on your face is as clear as a sheet of paper.

Honestly I bitch about them too. What's there not to like about your "friends" right? No one can escape this i strongly believe.

And if you wish to hold grudges on me ..... your pasal. I'm still living my own life. And you can hold on to your lies sampai dah beruban. Nanti dah tua, dah nyayok pun dah tak ingat ini semua lagi apa.

Whoever reads this, don't come and ask me what's wrong with me, whom I'm talking about because It's seriously a number of you. So just diam. Ak da mals nak ca ni se ben. kal nak ta, tun la la.

Thing is, you'll never understand me.
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I still think that cutting my hair brings me rotten luck. Now bunny you really have to appear eh!

6mm

2009-03-05T05:22:00.000-08:00

Hoping hoping really hoping for a miracle to happen. God pleaseeee!

And God, excuse and forgive me for my forbidden holes. I'm so tempted! But most importantly, forgive me Mom! I can't help it. As much as it pains you to see, it does so to me as well. These are the furthest i'll go .... I think. :P

Monday, don't go all blue on me.

And bunny baby, where ze fcuk are you?

can't move

2009-03-03T07:27:00.000-08:00

f'ckd up server.

I've so many reasons to be angry about. But i should learn how to breathe first. And no thanks to my happy pill. 4 days without bunny ears is so close to losing my insanity. I MUST BE CRAZY!

I've no mood to work. I don't believe in team work. I shall just go with the flow....... Nasib there's still Rad, or else ...

I know I'm rude .... but gangster??? HAHAHAH! you're kidding me man. and seriously, you're just one annoying flu bug, and like i said, I PITY YOUR LIFE, whether u claim you're "cute" or not. tsk! i guess u can still cover your butt with what you people are good at .. using toilet paper.
dah lah irritating nauzubillah, bau kau nye badan lagi k.

Opps, I guess my blog might be revealed to your "WHO IS THAT MANUFACTURER OF MATTRESSES AGAIN"? or better yet, my boss. But whatever, you're stinking up my space already. And last but not least, We're seriously better off without you, or the latter.

flying fuckkkkkkkkkkkkksssssssssssssss to you A-holes.

I hope Thursday morning will make up to my badly bruised yeterdays. and i seriously need a puff. Goodnight, angels.

eh, you guys should listen to my ability in speaking Thai. I'm bloody good man! lol!

done!

2009-02-27T07:23:00.000-08:00

how i wish my 735am less than an hour train ride last forever . . . . hahahha.

oh yah, thanks to those two devils for making that sweet collage for me! i loveeee it! haha.

andd today's the shittiest day ever! hair got seriously chopped! fringe got a little crazy on the flat side, and what do you know, dining at the same place with the last person i would ever want to encounter with. sigh! i miss my slutty long hair and absolutely you, bunny ears! lol

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2009-02-23T04:50:00.000-08:00

Jakarta is definitely my kind of paradise. Even though "pempek" which is surprisingly quite tasty scares me a whiff, I do not care. And even if I do not understand what yababelluu they're talking, i'll just helplessly melt. Ahhhhhhh.....mentel!

With 6 books untouched, hmm....where do i begin eh?

fool

2009-02-13T07:33:00.000-08:00

:(

Don't dream of seeing pictures in my blog, unless, this stupid computer decides to show some mercy on me. grr! COMPUTER, u read that right. who owns a computer in this century? me?

well anyway, main objective of seeing my entry for today is .... Life is unfair, deal with it!

other than that, you ya-ya papaya who decides that English is the only language u speak, sounds stupid, when half of the time, what you've been penning down is nothing but atrocious trash. quarter of what's inside is definitely feast on eagle's eyes.

wondering who's eagle, why....it's me of course. hahah!

goodnight, sleepy souls. I was about to sleep when dad ask me to do something on the net. So THANKS DAD.

and Happy Valentines all bunnies in love. I dread this whole week of working!!!!

sigh!

2009-02-09T04:33:00.000-08:00

I guess i am one lazy blogger! haha! but nevertheless, I'm still here, trying to update about my puny life.

First thing first, what's my blog without ramblings bout' my job right?! YES! today, I shall make use of my "free" time to update a lil' bit bout' fucktards around me or otherwise, known as colleagues. (fucktards suits them better...hmm)

I just don't understand why u motherfucking A-hole must make something so small like your ma'fucking self, to a more complicated situation, when it can't be solve just within your reach? GOD! I guess it makes you happy huh, seeing me getting scolded? whatever you half-boiled egg. why don't you SERIOUSLY get your self some Listerine. YOUR BREATH PAINFULLY STINKS!

If working in the morning, is what you want, by all means, take it. i could not care less.

I don't think that you're THAT good. the way that you're strutting is one big joke already, and don't get me started on the rest. seriously, I'm just tired of people who's trying to pull myself down. I've seen it once, and another one is not really necessary.

And i don't give two fucks about the rest of you either. The ones who thinks that, me stating the facts, giving my full honesty when it comes to blogging, pretending to like my presence. I'm gonna say it, like i always did......

WHATEVER~~

Getting to know you might be one mistake, but putting you above the rest is the biggest SIN i've ever committed.

opps there i go again, spitting bullets blindly. whatev....

no doubt.

2009-01-31T05:08:00.001-08:00

It's a RARE occasion to see updates on my site, right? p

So lo and behold, *drum roll please* for i have nothing to show, no SURPRISES, zero, telor. bleartt.

Since project FAZ 105-D is still on-going (all it's still the same, bummer!), and project FAZ 05-PM has been untouched since the yesteryears, I hardly have the time for some breather.

On a not-so RARE occasions i encounter every now and then, you are ONE BLOODY hell of a person, slinky cat! Good gracious god, thanks for the patience you've built in me i guess (?). that's just me, sticking with the person i have the very least patience on.

One thing i miss about 2008 is surely the good ol' MacD's garlic chili sauce.....random i know.

2009-01-20T17:27:00.000-08:00

a day's off today. so i might as well blog right?

dad came in my room with a cheerful good mornin greeting. what's up with that? gonna shop with mom for some textiles. and i seriously can't wait!

I've been having weird dreams bout' people in my past out of late. sinfully sinful. someone's been missing me huh? lol. haiz.

for now, i should get my butts on my books. 6 fucking books, too little time. i say, more train rides please! hehehhh.

and for starters, would you please stop getting on my freaking nerves?! not trying to be rude, but i am going with the flow, just cuz.....

:)

2009-01-01T22:12:00.000-08:00

I've been missing for so long right? And it's the 2nd day of 2009 already.

nothing interesting happened to me throughout the whole 2008, but i must say that my life is pretty well blessed with a certain number of friends. dance! i mean thanks, Karim, Amyn, Syikin, Fairul and the rest of you. You guys don't know how thankful I am to be 're-united'with you guys again. Good gracious god, i love my friends. i feel like crying already.

hopefully this year won't leave me 'empty-handed' like you, mr 2008. and i can foresee a b-e-a utiful life aheaadddd. :) :) with more impromptu meetings, more careless buys, and more impulsive shopping!

To our one month friend, you'll be greatly missed. and to the rest of my friends, i know right! you'll miss me even more. teehee! love you guys so bloody much! :(

2008-11-23T03:57:00.000-08:00

I'm starting to hate all this crap. the repetition of life. bla blaah blaaaah.

i thought of quitting my job reallllllll soon. but hmm, why can't i just stick to one decision at a time eh?

i think i'm bored.

2008-11-22T07:10:00.001-08:00

I'm sorry, but i think you're stupid. your "hard attempt" to be a joker is seriously lame. bitch about me for all i care. Cause at the end of the day, I am still giving all these flying"whatever-s" i have to each and everyone of you.

*yawn*

2008-11-22T06:39:00.002-08:00

shit. they're back.

work, work, work.

2008-10-14T17:33:00.000-07:00

So, hello once again, after what seems like forever for me to update.

Honestly I'm really busy lah. The only time i get to have this old chunky computer on my fingertips is times like this (time check : 8.35am).

Being transferred back to ML was no biggy. Though it is SAD to leave my truly beloved friends. Those two who'll always stick with me when it comes to lunch, fume breaks, office gossips and more ramblings. :( misses you both SUE and BEK!

Back in ML, things are way different. It's like a love-hate feeling, back to back. urgh. But atleast everybody's working. Even the boss, unlike one ya ya papaya. I think he likes making enemies.

I did so much mistakes, but then again, like i said, things are way different. But no one seems to realize. And me, being me, with the 'whatever' attitude needs to seriously snap! As you all know (fel, alfiah and of cuz the other two LP-ians, oh ya HELLO FELICIA, WELCOME TO MY zah zah zah boring blog, lol) ML's workload is no joke. Shitload of white/green/pink sheets lying around, waiting for your mercy. If i have the chance to complain (er wait, this is my blog, of cuz the rules are made by me) i think the time constrain is seriously bugging me.

What i mean by carefree days is, going to work in the morning and leaving the place in time. But back in ML, you'll never know the exact time. bahhhh. I'm so tired of filing, almost all my entries with work shits.

boo hoo hoo, did i say i miss sue and bek, ok lah, nurul jannah already? i did! i guess i do really really miss them.

and yeah, i have this evil smevil plan not to even smile or well, acknowledge that one BIG SHOT when i see him outside. who needs to know him anyways? pity him for his sad life though. he need space to let love in, acting all grumpy when 1% of his presence is only needed. tsk.

ahh

2008-10-08T01:31:00.000-07:00

I nearly died today, no thanks to Janny. tsk, chucker! still shaking a wee bit now. goodness.

haha.

http://www.maniacworld.com/color_blind_test.htm

it's been a long while eversince i had a good nice sleep. thanks to RAYA. but i enjoyed every sweat produced day 1 till 4. and no it won't end. haha. hmm.

2008-10-07T18:28:00.000-07:00

I've yet to announce my blog to the public, and it's the 25th post already! haha.

And I've so many things to blog about but oh well,

I'm just plaiiin lazy.

October has been pretty good. :)

glad.

2008-09-30T00:43:00.001-07:00

My leave is granted. Alhamdulliah, syukur. Infact, this whole week I'll be on pure bliss leave loh. Ahhh, what a nice way to welcome Aidilfitri. Now hell yeah I'm looking forward to all those sweet delicacies, and those sin sin sinful foods. I say, fatty bum bum in process, well ... I am already. hah!

Thanks Sofian, for your kind thoughts. Very very much.

So excited please!!!!!

heartfelt.

2008-09-29T19:53:00.000-07:00

hahahahahahahahaharirayahahahahahahaha.

This year Aidilfitri will be meaningless. How i wish i could take the first week of Raya's Thursday leave. I'm officially sad, seriously sad.

I've a very BIG and HUMONGOUS family island wide. My family and all the rest will be happily visiting relatives and I'll be wasting time working. :( I hate my working life. period!

Anywhoopedoo, I would like to susun sepuluh jari ini, dan mohon maaf seandainya your favourite girl down here, termaki, terkasar bahasa or well, just being my plain self most of the time aquainted. teehee, you guys know me well, what i said, simply came out of my mind, not my heart. And most of the time when i say something hurtful, i realised and I'm utterly sorry.

So SUHAILA,
ALFIAH,
& NURUL.

(mainly you 3lovelovelove since only you guys are noted bout this blog)

maaf banyak2. you know I'm no good, but u know i cant get any better. :P

SELAMS HARS RAYS ya guys.

strain

2008-09-29T01:16:00.000-07:00

HEART PAIN. HEART PAIN. HEART PAIN!!!! And I'm burning! tsk.

that's it. fuck you fuckers. fucking fuck of a fucking fuck fuck.

for now I'm contented as it is with friends and my beloved family, so much for all the fcuking talks. you're no better.

burst.

2008-09-26T19:43:00.000-07:00

Hmm. what happened to all my happy thoughts?

Can't let any COWs (no pun intended, though ... haha) moooooo my day away. le sigh.

side track, i screwed up my BIG INTERVIEW. but that's not something new i guess. corky and dorky is my middle name afterall.

Actually i wanted to blog about yesterday and the day before but, I'm still hopping MAD leii!

lost.

2008-09-26T19:14:00.000-07:00

FUCK EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU!!!!!!!!

FUCKING A-HOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M SERIOUSLY FUMING MAD!!!

just what is wrong with you fuckers? don't mess with the raging fire, or I'll fucking set u ablaze! i don't even giving a flying fuck to any of you bastards. son of a mother fucking COW!

milkshake, apple bottoms.

2008-09-23T23:10:00.000-07:00

swirl of emotions and mixed feelings.

I think I'm going to be sick. *cough cough*

one step at a time

2008-09-23T21:19:00.000-07:00

Maybe time will tell. I guess it's not the time yet for me. I take things tooooo seriously sometimes, that my own actions hurts me real bad. and i take things for granted too, sometimes. such indecisive bitch i am.

Why am i bad at making decisions? If only I can read minds....teehee.

And I'll still be the hesitant one ... or rather.

Hello, Sue, Fie and Nurul. my 3 fellow readers, for now. hahah .. xoxo.

self note: better tell sofian abt my appt. it's now or never.

burning

2008-09-23T01:24:00.000-07:00

you can jolly well go to hell.

portable dj

2008-09-22T22:45:00.000-07:00

funny why I'm not feeling hungry at all when i only ate a little bit of those yummy noodle strips (ojalali, ojolali?) yesterday. And I'm not even fasting today. Downed two vitasoy since it was on sale. haha. i should keep that up, minus the vitasoys of cause.

Yesterday was good while it lasted, although I find him a lil irritating (wait, i find most guys irritating, haha). And me, being my irritaing self, or so he says, with I-DON'T-KNOW replies most of the time. buttt i seriously have DON'T KNOW whutttt.

p.s i feel like dumping my phone, for no apparent reason at all.

gift

2008-09-21T17:48:00.000-07:00

If my prayers have been answered, or has been, I THANK YOU GOD.

If my answered prayers will be giving me an opportunity of what I've been missing in life, I THANK YOU GOD.

If my answered prayers will be giving me more than life, I THANK YOU GOD.

but if it's just a test, I'll still be thanking you.

2008-09-19T19:45:00.000-07:00

If i was given the chance to leave this company for good, I'd leave with all smiles. I've never been in this state before, where hatred adheres me. My mind is telling me to stay, but in a manner of speaking, my heart wants nothing to do with this company nor the associates no more.

Dad sis will be sleeping over again. The other time was not that bad afterall. but she's a little bit weird.

Tmrw will be going geylang with the family and maybe dad's sister. -.-

p.s I lost my freaking ciggaretes at home. Someone stole it. Must be my stupid brother. fucking singapore cigg, 18 intact some more! how can i not be angry right?

p.p.s thanks mum, for giving me money to buy another one. and I hope you'll rot in hell ah brother!

p.p.p.s one patient just came today (sat) and i was asking her whether she's fasting or not, she told me yeah, since monday. hahaha. since monday eh, like that i dont think u need surgery anymore loh! hahaha. 5 days of fasting eh, kalau kan orang melayu!

i cannot sleep, i cannot dream tonight.

guilty pleasure.

2008-09-19T00:23:00.001-07:00

You know how it feels like when you have been wanting to let go of something but you're dreading to let it go at the same time too?

Prft, it sucks alright.

Trying to make myself feel better, is like the slurping the last drop of milkshake.

On a different note, damn, Gelare's milkshake's the bomb. Yummmmmm! Thank god they have a branch just two bus stops away and a long lonng lonnnng walk back home, if you're living in the border or Woodlands and Marsiling, you'll know what i mean. ;)

Thank God it's Friday or better know as TGIF!

TGIF!!! hah.

control.

2008-09-18T20:26:00.000-07:00

Oh sweet mother mercy of god! THE PAIN is unbearable.

p.s RASHID stinks for the 23546451th time. Have mercy on me nose.

p.p.s grr. sometimes i wish i was never here.

Eh, I was *this* close to cabot-ing from work yesterday. Like tak datang forever. Yes i know! This job is easy peasy, buttt to think of the stress level I've been coping with moronic fucktards, life just can't get any better. My whole entire working life here has been filled with hatred. Don't even start with managing my anger. How could i? When . . . . . . .

haiyah, that is why i wanna have this blog opened up to cetain people, so that the possiblity of me ranting about anyone who's been part of my miserable like, easy. But then again, who am i to decide. You guys get the very best out of me.

>:(

nails

2008-09-16T21:37:00.000-07:00

Amazed at how good Zanna's ( a very good and hilarious ex schmate ) memory can be. She knows that I'm a person of my words (sometimes, lol) and whenever anybody makes promises, IT'S A PROMISE. no consolation for that. I'm very grumpy, and I think most of my friends knows that. I guess my anger management is that bad.

Dined with Sue and Fel ( not break fast though, since i was not fasting, haha) yesterday. Had kebab and yummy cheese cake. Ahh...at days like this, when u have the right company, u'd just surrender. I love my friends, be it the old ones or not. Though sometimes . . .

p.s please be more thougtfull lah someone. You're getting on my nerves for like forever.

p.p.s i smell/spot a very dirty cat, sport snix, sports snix!

sigh

2008-09-15T21:39:00.000-07:00

I think I'm fasting half day today. bah!

I think GOD is really watching us know. GOD can also read minds. Just saying this cuz something extra-ordinary (not really lah) happened to me today! And I'm not kidding! Haha, maybe it's part tech and part natural but I don't know! Know nothing what I'm talking about? Then goood.

Bleargh, I don't know. I thought by starting a new blog, It's like a new kick start or something to my life but nooooo. Motherchucker! Ohh...the wishful thinking!

p.s good for nothing dumbchucks!

p.p.s i am not ranting, am i?

Berries.

2008-09-15T01:47:00.000-07:00

Nenehpoks day on Wed! Can't wait! Hope it'll be as carefree as the good ol times, where our flaws is the ultimate escapade, to our source of entertainment. How i miss US.

p.s F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F. yes, I've never danced in the rain.

2008-09-14T21:54:00.000-07:00

OHH the thoughts! how could i? prft. shutting down for good and for all.

self note : lesson learnt, and i'm baffled. It's a normal human thing to do, but why am i always bad at it? My life is screwed as it is, don't YOU (yes, im stressing on YOU) know it? failure i am, failure i am. :(

closer.

2008-09-12T21:08:00.000-07:00

So far, 3 souls have been told about this blog they never knew existed! huaaaa. and it's my 7th post now?

1 more hour to go, and i can finally feel the sweet sugarcoated weekend brushing through my skin. ahhh, such joy! bbbbbbbbbbbb (: :)

Today will be a very long day, sighh Iftar with my dad's sisters and their families over at my place. siannn. I have nothing against his sisters but I just don't like them. My mother's side is far fetched better. kill joy! And i've decided to stay in the room, with lights out.

p.s M.I.A for way too long, hun.

Black cherry.

2008-09-10T20:05:00.000-07:00

Hmmm, too much too say. I don't even know where to start. One thing for sure though, I'm liking the way I am now, and where the hell have you been ?

Time is a bitch fit. What happened to the glorious laid back sleazy June? Heck, It feels like I'm in the mid month. Now 2008 is coming to an end, and i can bid my teeeeenage life goodbye. Not that I'm looking forward to it though.

I'm soooo gonna quit this job. By this year. Prft, i know I've been saying it since forever, but I'm doing it for sure this Dec. My life has been disastrous eversince I'm here. Everything about my working life in this I____ D____ sucks. And yes, I'm looking forward to pure bliss life after my worsest 2 years of life spent here. I don't even have a life to start with. teeheehee.

P.S / Rashid please close your gap. It's hideous.

P.P.S / I'm so hungry.

snap.

2008-09-07T22:14:00.000-07:00

Feel like going to geylang again. Don't know why. hah! Saw a couple of familiar faces. .hmm Weather was so fucking bad on Sat night. Thankfully, Rab's bf, Afiq decided to give us a ride home. (thanks guys) Now, i need to find a man with a ride! haha.

I think I'm going to be sick.

Self note: cleanse and puasa on Wed, Faz!

2008-09-05T19:02:00.000-07:00

Went to geylang yesterday with the usual girl and 2 half women. haha. i hate the crowd. but annnnyyywaayyyyy, it was ha ha hilariously spent.

It's sept already?

2008-09-03T18:43:00.000-07:00

Met Ali after soooooooooooooo long, eversince he's in NS.

self note : i just don't understand why girls bitch so much bout' NS. I know i know, but a man's gotta do, what a man's gotta do, right? so please, get over it.

And not forgetting Dino, tsk annoying. Went to Vivo and as usual, guys is much more bitchier than us girls. It's a normal thing to be late right? I left them when they had a change of plan (after dinner and some small talks that is), and that's when they get more bitchier.

Met Fie at Ang Mo Kio. and suddenly ... i'm kinda lazy to elaborate.

Happy fasting btw.

2008-08-20T22:58:00.000-07:00

Today's post will be more on myself rather den pictures unfortunately. Sorry hoh. I need space.

I've been watching tonnes of movies out of late. Bit by bit, i think my life relate on them. I think it's the only way for me to feel and reach out, somehow. Like getting to my inner self. I've pretty much lost track of the happenings in a human being's life. Not that I don't want to, but I'm left out.

Once in a while, I'm just like any normal 20 year old. But I'm still trying to fit in with the "normal" humans. (I think I'm a martian). Ok maybe watching too much movies (when I'm still at work) brings too much influence. HaHa! But I'm not to blame. Those movies are toooo good to be true. I think movies are much more realistic than what my life seems, now.

I've not been dealing with life that well either. I've not been a great follower in my religion. Yes, i ought to be slapped. But I'm trying to atleast think of God atleast once a day, or more. Yes, shame on me. I don't even know the basic of our 5 daily doings. But I'm following. I know the rights and wrongs. But it seems that the 'wrong' side seems to draw much attention to me and I'm very sure, others as well. One must learn to restrain. But are we that strong to do that? You know the answer, yes?

And ahhh, love. U can either die from it, literally or add more life to what u already had. I've not been in love for a very long time. Not that I'm fussy of cuz. But finding the right one which suits your needs is a tad hard. Not only that i want someone who suits my personality, but most importantly is that, he have to love me for who i am, and not for what i am. Of of cuz, we have to be deeply in love, deeper then the ocean. And that person must be able to give me butterflies in my tummy. Ha Ha Ha. AHHHHHH, i'm so fond of looking at couples. Makes me jealous! hmph!

I almost gave up my life when i fall out of love, once, but I think God's giving me another chance to meet someone better. Or maybe to give that person to a much better lass than i am. I'm somewhat happy to see him now. I think if we're still together, our life will be nothing but miserable. Too many tears, too many empty promises. And not only that, we seems to have too many problems. It's always important to get along well with your partner's family, cuz one day, not only that you'll be marrying him/her, you'll be marrying to that person's family as well. But i really thank him, he's a very great lover indeed. lol. ahh, your first love brings nothing but gooooood memories. It'll be great if we're on talking terms. Oh my, i think i listen too much on my friends, that i don't even have a chance to say what i want.

ok, peace out.

warmth.

2008-08-19T23:03:00.000-07:00

My own account, finally. Not that I've never had one or anything. Blogger used to be a bitch when i was using it say .. 3 years back. So I've been sharing an account with my sister.

As for my other blog, well, It'll be my keepsake or I'll be deleting it away. Some good ol' memories, and some bad ones. Whatever it is, my memory is as stale as a bread. I can't even remember my childhood memories. So yeah, pardon me if I've forgotten your names in times to come.

So basically, I'll be posting more pictures on this blog. c'mon, who wants to read a blog with a whole shitloads of rants, with no pictures right? well i don't.

And as for a start, I'll upload my shitty bang bang face for hmm .. me to see, since no souls have been told bout this blog yet. But I will, when there's more then 5 post. love(:peace.

Opps, sorry. What a way to welcome you guys. Hahahlol.

Hah, K maybe not this one either.

Ahh, that's more like it, Nice to meet you!